by Jessica Martin-Weber
This post made possible by the support of EvenFlo Feeding
Parenting can be really hard. Even when you love it and feel this is what you are meant to do it can be really hard. Every parent has times when they are overwhelmed and question whether or not they made a mistake in becoming a parent. These feelings crop up in certain circumstances or in the midst of a difficult day. That’s totally normal and usually it passes pretty quickly, is lifted in talking with an understanding friend, or things come into perspective when you get some time alone.
But there are feelings that go beyond this. If you’re experiencing more than occasionally feeling overwhelmed, it isn’t your fault and you’re not a bad parent for feeling how you do, but you may need help. While it is common for most parents to experience moments of questioning and doubt along their parenting journey, a persistent and reoccurring presence of these feelings may be more normal for a postpartum mood disorder.
If you find that you identify more with the normal of a postpartum mood disorder, you’re not alone even if nobody knows you’re struggling this way. Many parents have been there before, you are not alone and you’re not some kind of broken freak. It is possible that you have a medical condition that needs treatment. In reaching out and sharing the experience we can better recognize the normal symptoms of postpartum mood disorders leading to better care for ourselves and our families. We need to understand the normal feelings and thoughts for a postpartum mood disorder.
- If you have the recurring feeling that your child would be better off without you, this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
- If you are feeling that you don’t want to be a parent and that feeling lasts for more than just a moment, this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
- If you are having feelings of wanting to hurt or abandon your child, this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
- If fear dominates your thoughts and actions, this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
- If you have anxiety that won’t let you sleep or makes you not to want to leave the house, this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
- If you have fantasies of hurting yourself or disappearing from the world, this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
- If you regularly feel rage toward yourself, your partner, or your child(ren), this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
- If you feel that you don’t deserve to live, this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
- If you can’t get out of bed every day or you hide away from everyone, this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
- If sadness and despair color most of your experiences and interactions, this is a sign that something more serious is going on.
These feelings are not just what every mom feels on their bad days, these are all signs that something more serious is going on and you need help. These are normal feelings when you have a postpartum mood disorder. Every parent has hard days and every parent has moments when they feel they need a break, but the feelings listed above are more normal of a postpartum mood disorder including postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety. If you have a postpartum mood disorder, you are not alone, others can relate.
Depression and anxiety are real illnesses but because they don’t present with an apparent physical ailment, often they are ruled as just a bad day or a lack of strength or character. This is a lie.
If you recognize yourself in any of these signs, please know that you are not alone but these aren’t the feelings everyone should expect in parenting, these are the feelings that are common with depression and anxiety or a postpartum mood disorder. That doesn’t mean you are broken but it may mean you are unwell. Everyone deserves health as much as possible and that includes mental health. If you had strep throat you would get care and treatment. So it is with mental health. It isn’t a weakness to get help when you are sick, it makes us healthier and stronger for living life with those we love.
Please, let someone know how you are feeling and reach out for help. These crisis lines are available to any parent in crisis:
UK: 08457 90 90 90
And if you know of someone struggling with any of this, reach out to them, here are some tips as to how. Sometimes we need someone willing to help us walk through the process of getting help. To support us and believe in us and to refrain from judging us. You could make the difference in someone’s life by simply caring.
You matter, you are enough. We care about you.